Day 28 - 7 weeks 6 days

This weekend has ultimately been uneventful, but I have been doing a lot of thinking about love. I am in love with life and how there is something growing inside of me that I am nurturing. I love knowing that no matter what, I am surrounded by supportive people-and I could not be more thankful for that.

All of the baby books/web sites have said that this month is the most emotional, and let me tell you, I am emofest 2008. I am so thankful for everything that I have (and everyone in my life) that I just want to go out and tell you guys how much you mean to me.

There is one person in my life who has shown me what it really means to grow up, and without him I wouldn't be who I am today. He is one of the strongest, selfless, and smartest people that I have ever known, and I love him. Thank you for everything that you have given me in the last few years, I really appreciate it.

But times are a changing. I have learned that there are people who you can start over with. Be 100% honest with, and I am going to take full advantage of this. You know who you are, thank you for helping me learn to love life because it is amazing and sometimes unplanned. Thank you for running out in the middle of the night to get me fruit. Thank you for watching me cry and wipe away my tears. But most of all, thank you for being such a good friend. I would be completely lost without you.

It is so weird to think that there is something inside me growing. It is so weird to think that this time next year I am going to be kissing my baby's little face and belly and toes. I wish that I could put into words how much I love it already. There is a wonderful site called BabyCenter that I go to every single day and they have this thing that shows you how big your baby is. This week my child's brain begins developing, how cool is that! Apparently his little webbed fingers are coming out, too. That is so cool.

OMG WEEK 8:
My little monster looks like that! How cute/alieny is that!?!!?! Oh, I love him/her so much. I have also decided that if it is a girl, I will name it Jemma Annelyse! I am still thinking of a boy name, and I really like Josiah, but I am not sure. We'll see I suppose.

Now, I am sure some of you are hoping for a belly picture, and I promise you that I will have a few for you soon. Hang in there everyone!

Day 22 - 6 weeks 6 days

I finally posted the link to this blog on my Facebook, thank you to all of my supportive friends! I really appreciate all the congrats and whatnot. I am going to take a picture of my belly every day until I give birth (or every other day). I am going to start tomorrow when it is officially 7 weeks! I will create a Flickr page for it and post it on here so everyone can see.

I have been thinking of some baby names and for a girl I like Jemma Annelyse. I am still not sure for a boy, but I really like the name Josiah. If you want, you can recommend some names to me. I'd really like that.

Alright, time to eat some food, that seems to be all I ever do! Hope all is well!

Day 21 - 6 weeks 5 days

Alright, so I am officially moved back into my parent's house. I only have a few things left to grab from my old house, so that is good. I am glad to be home, I get all kinds of food and my sisters help me out a bunch. I am tired all the time and I feel pukey all the time, especially if I don't eat.

Tomorrow is my last day of the quarter and I am super excited to get it done with. 2 week break! Ooooh man, what will I ever do? I am working on a baby registry and stuff, when I get that done I will definitely link it on here.

I hope all is well. Lots of love!

Day 18

Today was an awesome day overall. This morning we went to the doctor's to have our first ob/gyn visit and it was awesome! I saw my little one's heartbeat! We also got a photo! Check it out:
Omg! My little bean! It is so cute! I love it so much, more than I have ever loved anything in my entire life...it is amazing! MY DUE DATE IS MAY 11, 2009! I am 6 weeks and 2 days along!

Oh man, I love it.

So, I had my last studio class final today. I am so glad that this quarter is out of the way, woosh for next quarter! I hope it is a little bit easier for me. I did manage to escape with straight A's again, so that is pretty cool.

Alright, well, again I hope all is well with everyone. Don't worry, I will definitely post more!

Day 16

I have known that I am pregnant for half a month now, and it has really been one of the most astonishing half a months ever. Right now, I think that I am the moodiest I have ever been. I feel alone, sad, unsure, scared, pissed off, and tired. I am eating non-stop, finals are here and are just as stressful as they have always been. My doctor's appointment is on Thursday, I am pretty excited for that.

I think I am beginning to push baby's daddy away. I am really not trying to but I feel so alone and there really isn't anything he can do to help me. I need to talk to someone about it, I think.

I need a hug.

Day 11

I am still tired. No matter what, I think I am going to be tired. I am on the hunt for some type of consistent income that is more than what I make right now. I am trying to revamp my life before the little monster pops out, which is kind of hard. Letting people go, moving on, moving out, growing up. It is hard.

Sometimes I am so excited about this that it is overwhelming. I am in love with this thing and I have no clue what it even looks like. It is so weird.

SO! I can't even drink GATORADE. wtf srsl! It sucks, but I am getting used to the taste of water. I guess I am going to get back to the job thing. Bye guys!

Day 10

I am officially tired all of the time. With a recent stint of the air conditioner being broken at the house, I am now not only overheated when I go there, but when I try to sleep I don't really get any. I am in my 8am class right now, I am glad that I only have one of these next quarter. It doesn't really matter though because I will be waking up at the same time to go to work, anyway.

I went and ate breakfast with Mom the morning, she lifted up my shirt in front of everyone and said hello to my "little peanut". That woman is nuts, seriously. I guess I am pretty excited to move back home, they are excited to have me. At least I will get more sleep.

My friend Alex gave me a bunch of baby books yesterday. That is pretty nice of her. I am also building a baby registry thing at Target (I love Target), when I have it finished I will post a link here.

Well, I am going to get back to work. Haha, I am funny.

Day 7

The other night I had a fretful trip to the emergency room and learned that I am only 3 weeks preggo! Since then I have been taking it easy (or trying to) and I decided that I am moving back home to my parents in order to save some money. Hopefully I won't go too nuts with my sisters being around.

My mom is super excited. Everyone is, really. Which is good, I love the fact that I am surrounded by people that love and support me no matter what I choose.

Anyway, I thought I would update everyone. I hope everyone is doing well!

This one's for you.

Day 3

Today was rather eventful. I spent the night at the baby daddy's. He made me a bubble bath-which I had a pretty rough allergic reaction to. I had a hard time sleeping because I kept dreaming that someone was trying to steal my baby out of me. I went to class two hours late and handed in my project, threw up in front of a class, worked, and took an Art History test (which I think I failed). All in all, today was kind of hard.

I applied at Best Buy, so hopefully I can get a job that I will actually like. I used to work there awhile back and I am excited to see maybe if I can make a solid income there now that I wont be able to be super TV hottie. Lame.

Anywho, I woke up this morning with some pretty intense cramp-like pains, I googled it and it sounds like it could be round ligament pain/stretching, which is normal. Sweet.

I kind of feel like the baby daddy is standoffish, it is probably all in my head though. He seems to be busy and he's got his own shit on his mind, so I will leave him to that.

Oh, and I cried over the fact that you have to have at least $1.25 cash to get something non-caffeinated at school. That shit is retarded.

Now I am going to eat some food and drink some chocolate soy milk. Yums!

Day 2 (Week 5ish)

Sunday night I realized that I could possibly be pregnant. I told my partner, who is very supportive and helpful, and we ran out immediately and bought a pregnancy test. I peed on the stick, and of course, two lines appeared.

My life is now 180'ed:

• No caffeine. This means that my lifeline (Diet Mountain Dew) is out of the picture. Yay! Juice after juice after Gatorade after water...JOY!
• No alcohol. This is okay, I needed to cut back anyway.
• No weed. Seriously.
• I'm not a cigarette smoker, so no worries there.
• I have to sleep at least 12 hours in order for me to be functional the next day.
• I pee a thousand times a night.
• I throw up almost everything that I eat.

Now, why so secretive? Well, I haven't been to the doctor's yet, so I want to be 100% sure that my little sesame seed exists for reals. I told my mom, and she is super stoked, which is good. That is all I really need. In order for my new found family to exist, I have to keep everything on the hush hush, which is going to be hard when my stomach is overcoming my body. Yay!

Alright. So, now to what I really want to talk about: how I feel. Right now I feel like a blob laying on my bed being of no use at all. All I want is to take a bubble bath and possibly sleep through the night without having to pee, but I know that isn't going to happen. I have class early tomorrow (all day) and it is really going to wipe me out.

I am kind of worried/concerned of what is going to happen with me and the baby-daddy, but I am sure that it will all work out. He seems to be nice enough of a guy. I'm sure he'll love our little sesame seed just as much as me. And if he doesn't, well, his loss.

I am thinking about posting belly pictures every week, so be on the look out for that...whoever you are.